I pray that your day will be filled with great joy and moments of thankfulness. Remember to thank your amazing creator for his loving sacrifice for you! God bless!!!
I was walking down a long road that was lined and covered by trees that were creating the most beautiful canopy overhead. It was fall and the colors were amazing and vivid. As the wind slowly rustled you could see the light dancing on the roadway.
I felt utterly alone and wishing beyond wishes that somehow my life would be worth something, that I would not be forced to forever wonder if I had a purpose or if I was from the beginning, nothing but a mistake.
As I walked down the old dirt road I could see someone walking towards me. That person was a long ways off and I wondered what they were doing there. As I continued to walk they were suddenly in front of me just a few feet away. I knew without any introduction who it was and all within me jumped with joy and simultaneously shook with fear. It was Jesus.
I had spent years calling to Him, begging Him to help me from one thing or another. I had asked Him to help my daddy stop drinking, to stop being so angry, to just stop. I asked over and over and over and each time I felt that my prayers fell on deaf ears, there was silence and the prayers were unheard. My heart broke with each unanswered prayer and my belief in a God that loved me and a Jesus that saves all was shaken, of course not destroyed, but damaged.
The very moment I saw my Saviour standing there looking at me all my fears were in front of me. The joy of seeing Him there was inside of me. I could feel my heart leap. But I couldn’t allow it to carry me into His arms. I couldn’t allow it to help me feel peace. Instead I felt the fear and the dread. Is He here to tell me I was asking for too much, begging too much, that He had too much to do to deal with to worry about my miniature problems? Was he there to crush my very existence because I was a mistake? Was He there to accuse me of all the bad I had ever done, ready to sentence me to life of unbearable pain and suffering?
Hundreds of questions flew through my head in the split second before He spoke and then they were all silenced by His smile. What a sweet smile, warm and inviting. The very glance of His eyes melted my heart and put me at ease. His voice was soothing and yet it was strong and had authority.
“You are my girl.”
What did He say, surely He was mistaken, He had the wrong girl?
“You are mine and I love you, no one can harm you. You were not a mistake and I have many plans for you, you are mine.”
I couldn’t believe that with three sentences He crushed every fear I ever had. Tears streamed freely down my face and as they did He reached out and wiped up each and every one. Not one fell to the ground. I felt relief and joy and peace wash over me and as quickly as He was there, He was gone again.
To this day that memory remains. It was a powerful, life changing moment. His love is everlasting, unrelenting and unconditional. It is pure. I am thankful for a love like that, a love I don’t deserve but freely receive. It is a love for the taking. It is for you. Have you had an encounter with Jesus?
Abandoned, alone, what do I do? My heart is beating so fast, what do I do? It has been so long since she left. I need help but no one is here and I don’t know what to do. She is crying and won’t stop and I am scared that somethings really wrong. She has needed a new diaper for so long and I don’t have a new one. I tried to clean it but it isn’t helping. She has red streaks going down her legs and her tears just wont stop coming. God what do I do? Something calms my heart for just a second, something brings peace.
“Sis you stay here, I will be back soon. I am gonna go call dad. He will come and he will know what to do. Please don’t cry no more. I love you! Just play with your baby. I will be back.” As I kiss her head goodbye I feel how hot she is. Fear jumps forward into my throat again and my heart beats faster. I feel like I might be sick.
I turn and leave before I can change my mind. It scares me to leave her alone but I have to call dad! There is that peace again. I am her big brother and it is my job to take care of her. Where is mom? Why isn’t she back yet? I hate when she leaves us like this!
It is a warm sunny day outside and I am scared as I walk up the alleyway looking for houses that might let me use their phone. It is a scary neighborhood and we don’t belong here. Mom left us at a friends house but they haven’t been home for a couple days. I just start asking people if they got a phone and it takes a while before someone lets me in to use their phone. As I walk into their home my heart jumps into my chest again. What if they are really bad people?! That peace fills me again and I wonder if it is God. I call my dad as fast as I can because I know he will help and I am right. He is on his way.
I run all the way back to where my sister is and go inside and scoop her up. She is still crying and must have been so scared but seeing me seems to make it all better. I hold her tight and realize how bad she smells, nausea washes over me. I must have not noticed before because we were together in this small home for so long, or maybe I just blocked it out but the smell is putrid. I notice now though and it makes me want to be sick.
This is not the first time I have been abandoned, we have been abandoned. It has happened before, many times. My mom works a lot and likes to party a lot too so sometimes she leaves us with different people. Some people are ok, others are scary. This time the people just disappeared. Maybe they were with mom. I wish she would come back.
I sit down with my sister and just wait for my dad. Peace… I can tell God is with me, comforting me. God loves me even when those that are supposed to love me forget. Because of Him, I can cuddle up with my sister and love her and forget the reasons I was afraid. Once I was abandoned, but now… I am now saved. Peace…
This story is based on a true story that was told through the eyes of a frightened little boy that grew up too fast. This kind of thing happens all to often. I hope this inspires you to see and do two things. First, see the pain in children’s eyes… it’s there. Help them. Don’t ignore it. Second, if that kind of pain lingers in your heart from long ago like it does mine, remember, there is one who will never abandon you and He will always love you. Let Him love you the way you should have been.
There is so much today that would break my heart if I would let it. So much suffering that on some levels there would seem to be no god at all, especially not a holy God above us. But then you glimpse the tiny little things that cause you to wonder and ask… “Was that god?”
There are so many things that would drown out the voice of Him who calls our names that we are in danger at all times of not hearing a word He says, not seeing the miracles He performs, not feeling the love that He pours out. The evil is growing, it is prowling and growling and stalking it’s prey… you… me… all of us. If he could only get us to doubt that what we hear isn’t really God, or what we saw wasn’t really a miracle, then he has us. If he can get us to shed our own blood, ruin our own lives, sacrifice our own beliefs, then we are truly his slave.
He tried to destroy our protector 2000 years ago and in the moment that he thought he won he was fully defeated and it angered him so deeply that his sole desire is to tear each of us into terrible tiny useless and ineffective little pieces. We are the hated, despised, loathed and we have become the hunted. We are the prey.
The blood moon is coming and as it makes its way the enemy of our soul will stop at nothing to make us believe a little less, pray with less passion, seek rarely and love conditionally… all only shadows of the real power He has given us. If he can do those things, though we “may” be saved our treasure will be small because we were not a true light in the darkness of this world. We were too busy listening to him who binds our minds to hear Him who frees all of us if given the chance.
How will He find you on that great and glorious day?
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Where are you going when eternity comes for you? Is that something you think about or do you push it away like an unwanted friend. God wants you to spend eternity with Him, He has made a way for you to do that but it is up to you whether you do or not. He loves you and would not want anyone (that means you) perish.
“For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.” John 3:16
“Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person, and they with me.” Revelation 3:20
All you have to do is accept His offer and ask Him and He will never leave you or let you down.